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I guess I should have known you would love me to ruins.

I should have known from the way your cracked lips shaped my name.

I should have known from the way your voracious pupils could never crave after my twin oceans for more than a fraction of a second, yet could consume my naked flesh for hours.

I should have known from the way your footprints scorched the kitchen tile.

I should have known from the way you hooked your fingers into my jeans instead of wiping away the acid water burning underneath my eyelashes.

I should have known from the way your smoke filled kisses burned my lungs.

I should have known from the way I was always worried that your nefarious and wayward laughter would bleed through the floorboards.

I should have known from the way you slammed your fist against the counter when I got lost trying to find a way out of my own head.

I should have known from the way your touch felt different in public, like your talons were dipped in poison, as opposed to powdered cancer when we were underneath the covers.

I should have known from the way you never asked what I was reading and where I went when I ran my fingers over the frayed pages.

I should have known from the way your honey voice pounded lemon juice nails into my temples.

I should have known from the way you spoke to me, with a dead voice and expressionless eyes, in front of your bramble buddies.

I should have known from the way you only said “I love you” when you were getting off.

I should have known from the bruises your breath left on my rib cage.

I should have known from the way you pulled out your phone every time I whispered about my recoiled passions.

I should have known from the way your dead, lifeless eyes only came to life when I brought home a bottle.

I should have known from the way your fingerprints left blood stains on the sheets.

I should have known from the golden noose you clasped around my neck.

I should have known from the way you left ash on the doorstep and didn’t know it was me.

And I especially should have known from the way you never asked if I was writing about you.

I should have known.
I should have known.
I should have known.

I did know.

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